The Origin

I disappeared from creating content for about seven months.
A lot of people thought I didn't want to create anymore. The truth is, I was tired of creating things that didn't feel like me.

For a long time, I was creating because I knew it would perform. I knew what people expected from me. I knew what got views. But somewhere in all of that, I stopped feeling connected to what I was making.

So I stepped away.

During that time, I found myself doing things I used to love as a kid. Not because they were productive. Not because they would make money.

Just because I enjoyed them. And I started noticing something.The more I gave myself permission to play, the better I felt. The more I created without expectations, the more I felt like myself again.

I realized that a lot of my healing wasn't coming from finding something new.

It was returning home.

Returning to the version of me that existed before I started worrying about likes, comments, views. The version of me that simply created because it felt good to create. That's where  the merchandise came from.

To be  a reminder.
A reminder for the people who once had a dream, an idea, or a creative passion and told themselves they would come back to it later.

A reminder that creativity isn't childish.

Sometimes it's healing.